Happy vacation!

“When it comes to men who are romantically interested in you, it’s really simple. Just ignore everything they say and only pay attention to what they do.”

Randy Pausch

“If something burns your soul with purpose and desire, it’s your duty to be reduced to ashes by it. Any other form of existence will be yet another dull book in the library of life.”

 —  Charles Bukowski  (viakissedandbruised)

Living.

"An amazing thing happens when you get honest with yourself and start doing what you love, what makes you happy. Your life literally slows down. You stop wishing for the weekend. You stop merely looking forward to special events. You begin to live in each moment and you start feeling like a human being. You just ride the wave that is life, with this feeling of contentment and joy. You move fluidly, steadily, calm and grateful. A veil is lifted, and a whole new perspective is born.”

Paralysis

Will I continue to make the same mistakes in this life? 

When will I get this right?

“It is true that I create over and over again the same difficulties for myself in order to struggle over and over again to master them but to continually struggle against the same problem and to continually fail to dominate it brings a feeling of frustration and a kind of paralysis. What is necessary to life, to livingness, is to move on, in other words to move from one kind of problem to another.”

 —  Anaïs Nin, A Literate Passion: Letters of Anais Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953 (via larmoyante)

A love worth having

“I’m not saying that at some point love isn’t staying up until 2am phone calls or stealing kisses when you least expect it, or instantly falling for each other’s favorite songs because it is, or at least that’s what the lead up to it feels like, but real love, is so much more. It’s going out at 12am to get something to eat for your wife who can’t get out of bed, it’s listening to them as they explode with vulnerability on your living room couch talking about how they were only so young when their parents passed on. it’s remembering how someone likes their coffee in the morning without asking—without ever asking, it’s visiting someone in the hospital knowing the last thing you want to do is see them in that condition, it’s wanting to be with that person despite everything, the future, the past, and everything in between, it’s the intimate things that you don’t even realize involve such intimacy, but they do, in secret, like the pinky promises you two made behind your back, to love one another for always, in the time you thought you were in love, when you were actually just on your way to it.”

This is true love. 

This is honest love. 

This is worth having. 

Dirty hippies

Family time

Some much needed impromptu family time was underway this weekend for our 4th of July party involving cousins, cousins, and more cousins!   It was a breath of fresh air, a warm and muggy day, and you can't get better than fireworks and s'mores to end the night right...

<3 

Take 5

I love my job

I love my job. I took a walk up to the office I crash for working on the staff scheduling up on the Oncology floor and today the halls were full of happy patients. Little bald heads wandering the halls with their IV pokes, friends and parents. They were having a parade, you see,  to the playroom where they would all meld together and do an art project.

Happy faces of all ages, helping each other, laughing with each other, loving on each other, supporting each other. 

This. Is. Why. I. Love. My. Job. 

Kids aren't like adults. They don't wallow or pity themselves for long, they get up and get on with it. There are friends to text, homework to catch up on, baby dolls to push, slushies to be drank between chemo doses. 

I. Love. My. Job. 

It keeps me grounded. It keeps life in perspective. It keeps my mind fresh and my focus on how good life is, even on the hardest of days. 

<3

Disclaimer: these are not photos of our patients. I stole them off the internets for visual prettiness. :)

Napping at Nooney's

"Cousins"

My cousin Beth got married last weekend to a sweetheart of a boy. The festivities were perfect. A much needed family get away and a gorgeous weekend. 

I love this one. ;)

Call DCF!

The bride looked stunning, the day was a dream, and the champagne was flowing.  

These girls of mine, these cousins, can only truly be called sisters. 

We liked last weekend so much, we're doing it again this weekend with a cookout, campfire, s'mores and fireworks! I already miss them! <3